Monday, November 12, 2012

The Four-Month Blur

I've been absent from the blog-posting world, and the last four months have been an amazing, emotional blur.  My new life as a mother is overwhelming in such grandiose ways and I've been busy learning the ropes of motherhood while trying to balance my life as a mother, friend and career woman.  I was blessed to have 3 1/2 months at home with our little Lucy before returning to work, and feel I have found a healthy balance of at-home time and work time.  I was ready to return to work, but definitely not full-time.  I am working about 2 1/2 days a week, and so far it is working out very well.  I get most of my time with Lucy, but also get time away in the adult world, working in the career in which I spent so much time and money learning and training for. 
I've been trying to master the household cleaning schedule and meal planning, to make the days I work as simple as possible at home, and my days at home as organized as possible so I can maximize my time with Lucy.  My new life is full of experimenting with cloth diapers, dealing with a dwindling milk supply after returning to work, going dairy-free with my diet, low weight gain and spit up issues with Lucy, and teething.  I've been studying the Proverbs 31 woman and striving to "be enough" without being too hard on myself.  Life is all about balance, and more than ever I'm striving to find that balance.  I find some days I'm over-tired, overwhelmed and all I want to do is sleep; and some days I feel I am a full-of-energy superwoman.  What woman doesn't have good and bad days?!
Through the ups and downs of this new season of life, one thing is for sure; our house is filled to the roof, busting through the cracks with love!  Matt and I have a new-found love and respect for each other, and don't think it could be possible to love Lucy more than we do...until we wake up the next day.  I think she is cuter and cuter each day, and I can't begin to explain how my heart feels when I see her smiling up at me in the morning when I lift her out of her crib.  I never, for one second, take for granted how beyond blessed we are with our new, happy, strong, smart, beautiful little life. 
I've contemplated continuing to keep up with my blog, especially now that my time is so precious. However, as I've started to settle back into a routine I'd love to find time to share the things I'm finding helpful in this new season of life.  I would also love to continue using this blog as an avenue to obtain advice from you.  Experienced mother, new mother, future mother; we all have something to share, something to learn, and could all use a good dose of encouragement from someone who understands.  Let's start here:

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:16-18